Small Town

Whats guys?
im gonna post some stuffs i hate about living in a small town

We dont have many options to go out, the best club we've got can only have 900 people in.
Once a new store opens you have to wait like a month to be able to go and check it out coz everyone decides to make that their new place to hang out since its new
when you are around 13 you so have to go walk around in the mall from 7 to 10 on fridays
Your status is based on what you wear and whats your surname and the car you drive, yes some idiots have the audacity to check out people like that to accept them
if the popular girls start a new trend its either follow it or be ready to get laughed at, they will point at you and laugh
the new hot thing right now is bbq party, i dont really get the point of having a bbq party with out meat, they only have alcohol

Ive never fit in, as in ever, i always lived in my own little world, i never like too many people around me and all that
but whenever i got home i used to try to fit in.
my cousin knows everyone as in every single person in this town, and he always try to make me go out and meet his friends(thats part of my journey towards the one), so since i was like 13 ive been only hanging out with his friends so all my ex's are part of that group and I think being a model makes people hate me right away, every girl i try to be nice with either back stab me with lies and gossips or they just act plain fake.
So i used to always checkout the party pictures on the popular websites so i would know what was the "normal" thing to wear.
But it never worked out, it's like no matter what i do i will always be a oil in the water just doesnt mix...
Now I stopped trying to be the way every girl is here, and it's not that easy to be yourself when yourself is totally the opposite of what you are expected to be.
So now I'm trying this new thing i'm mixing the real me with a little more smile and friendly face, i hope it doesnt sound like i'm a bitch coz i'm shy people, thats why i dont enter the room smiling like a clown waving to who knows what.
i will make that even more clear I'M SHY NOT A BICHT



i hope you guys like it
its a little bit of what is like when im back home -social wise

XOXO