To blog or not to blog

well this past few days ive been kinda sad and thoughtful, being in a vacation is great but when it lasts for more then 2 months it can drive me nuts and ive been inside my room for the past 3 to 4 months and i just cant do it anymore, i started working when i was 14 and never stopped every since so now being stuck here with nothing to do is annoying...

another thing that has been in my mind is: What the hell do i want to do??
ive no such a thing as talent, i cant sing, i cant act, i cant dance, therefore im not really a so called Artist but the only industry that fascinates me are the entertainment and law enforcement, i was taking law here but i really cant stay only studying, i have this need of working, i need to be my own boss and pay for my things and be independent... and having to ask money to my dad is the worst thing ever !!!!! but finding a dream job is really hard i wanted to be a doctor and a lawyer and a public person but its hard to start when i dont have a fix schedule at any time i can get a call telling me i got a job somewhere and have to fly in the next day or sometimes even in the SAME DAY....!!!!! I like modeling when it comes to tvc (tv commercials) and print ads i really dont like ramps, but sometimes modeling sucks coz of bad agencies and bad clients and a whole other things that i will post about.
as of now i believe my post is very confusing and loosing focus in every line but thats how lost i am in my own world right now, i hope when i get to fix my work and my mind my posts will get better, who know maybe i will turn out to be a writer?? ok i know ur thinking "Oh just shout up right now!!!" or "Ambisyosa naman noh??!?!?".... haha
im done... i just want leave a remark
Thank you all that supports me and love me...
thank you to my friend Carla Chata De Mesa for being there for me...
hope u like it and leave ur thoughts

BABOOSH MERY CHRISTMAS !!!!!!